…with this hell of spring semester. Academically, this one was the most demanding. Personally, it kind of sucked, but the one good thing is that with one ending comes another beginning. I only get 2 weeks of summer, and then I’ll be back up in the wonderful town of College Station to take some summer school. Taking the worst class I will probably take in my undergraduate years, ELEN 214, Electric Circuit Theory, is something to dread. It’s so hard to take classes and spend day and night, night and day on something that you hate with so much passion. As I have learned through my years, there are lots of things that you have to put yourself through to achieve your future goals. These goals
presumably lead to life’s happiness, but you just have to grin and bear somethings that makes you turn awry because of how you dislike it so. I’ve always been too hardheaded like that, and I’m sure it has caused many people around me who care for me seem concerned. They probably think that what I am doing to myself is not very healthy nor joyful, but the fact of life is that there are a lot of things you have to do. Getting there is the hardest part. That’s the place I am right now, and until all is achieved, somethings will have to put on hold.
I do look forward to moving on with life things. I’m finally moving into an apartment, and I am so incredibly happy. Blantly, dorms suck, but they’re just a cheaper option. Hopefully, living in an apartment will help me to stay on tract with my exercise routine which almost catalyzes my happiness. For me, there’s just something awesome about doing good for yourself that is almost a “requirement.” You can exercise and not feel like a failiure. School is usually the exact opposite. See, I’ve always had a set of goals in my running mind, and I would always find a way to achieve them. We all know that there are only 24 hours in a day. What usually ends up happening is that I have so much that I want to complete in a day that I deem important that I usually end of sacrificing something which everyone needs, sleep. And I know that none of us can vouch and say we get 8 hours of sleep a night, but I mean like 3 hours of sleep a night. There is just so much to do in the day, without any breaks, and this is the only way that I find it possible to get everything done. What should happen is that I should stop doing some of these, including, eating or exercising, because quite frankly, they take too much time out of the day. I think I just perservere too much. Finally, I think my body is telling me this is not a good thing. I have had a cough for about a month and a half. I’ve fine with it, but I know that this is not healthy. But what do I do? I can’t take time to relax or sleep or etc.., so I guess I’ll pray that I don’t die in the next couple years. This is the way it’s going to be.
I hope everyone has a great next two weeks. They will be the best of my life.
I start summer school on May 27th, the day after Memorial Day. This ephemeral break has been absolutely wonderful. I don’t think I have been happier ever. To date, although I haven’t done much so far in retrospect, this is what I’ve done:
Swim
Run
SLEPT IN!
Got a massage
Went out a couple times
Went to the theatre to see a movie with stepdad
Got grades back…thorougly satisfied
Had a “swim lesson”
Spent time and even one night with the Smith’s
Ate out more than once (and probably gaining 2-4 pounds)
Went to the public library and checked out a book to study/learn in a week
Thrift store shopping Wednesday, 50% off
Tackled Chopin’s Deux Nocturne, op. 62, no.1…it’s a devil I tell ya
Laughed sooooooo much
Watched the Discovery Health Channel, my absolute favorite
Made picture perfect and tasting cookies for Rachel and Hannah
Life is blissful.
ELEN is not, but it’s just 10 weeks. I have a summer full of many plans. I’m looking forward to this. So far, it’s:
Spend time with Hannah, my precious half sister
Be a Danskin Swim Angel (volunteer)
Float the river more than once
2 Weddings, i think, maybe even 3
1 Wedding shower, 1 wedding reception
Possum Kingdom
So far, that’s my summer. Granted all of this will probably not happen because of the wrath of ELEN, but oh well, life goes on. One can only dream, right?